About me

From the Pit to the Presence

There was a time, not long ago, when the loudest thing in my life was the silence of a dark room. I sat there alone, drifting in the shadows of my own soul. I didn’t want to speak to anyone, and it felt as though no one wanted to speak to me. I called myself a Christian, but if I’m honest, I was the "modern-day" kind: lukewarm. I was neither cold nor hot, suspended in a gray area where my faith was a habit rather than a hunger.

Then, the rug was pulled out from under me.

In an instant, I realized how fragile our earthly foundations truly are. Careers, health, and reputations can vanish like mist. As I sat in that emptiness, I realized I didn't just need a "better life"—I needed my Creator. I needed the only One who promised never to leave or forsake me, even when I had forsaken myself.

The Turning Point

The Lord heard my silent cry. He didn't just meet me in that dark room; He reached into the "mud and the mire" and pulled me out.

“He lifted me out of the pit of despair... He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God.” (Psalm 40:1-3)

The transformation hasn’t just been external; it has been a total rebuilding of my internal world. I have moved from debilitating anxiety that felt like a weight on my chest to an indescribable peace that guards my heart. I used to be a slave to anxious thoughts; today, I am a student of serenity.

A Heart Being Molded

I am a work in progress—a clay vessel being daily molded into Christ's image. I am far from perfect, but I am finally willing. I’ve realized that there is a God-shaped vacuum in every human heart that no material success can fill. We are all incomplete until we find our rest in Him.

This blog is a product of that surrender. I had never done this before, and I felt I had little to offer. But I discovered a beautiful truth: When you offer God the little you have, He gives you all that He is. He didn't need my expertise; He just wanted my teachable spirit and a surrendered heart. He took my small "yes" and turned it into a platform for His glory.

My New Desire

As I have sought His face, my "want-to" has changed. I no longer chase the world's version of success. Instead:

• I desire closeness over comfort.

• I desire righteousness over recognition.

• I desire to be used by His Kingdom rather than building my own.

I wake up now with a strength that isn't my own. I know why I am here, and I know exactly where I am going. My ultimate hope is to one day dwell in His presence, fully restored in His likeness, in the New Heaven and the New Earth. But until that day, I am here to serve, to love, and to shine.

“Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.” (Psalm 34:5)

He has redeemed my story. My faith is stronger, my life is richer, and my heart is finally full. Jesus is first. Everything else is secondary.